I want to be an author - What's stopping me?

Hey everyone, hope you're all doing good today! Today I want to write about my dream of being an author, but what's stopping me?

Firstly I have a creative imagination, I tend to create characters and backstories for these characters in my head but they never come out onto paper or Word (Still paper right?). That is a problem that I tend to struggle with. Secondly, my attention span is rubbish, I try to do one thing (for example, writing this blog post) And I get distracted by YouTube or Facebook, also it takes me a while to do something, like build myself up to do something, because I know it requires my full attention.

Thirdly, I'm not that confident in my writing. I reckon my writing skills are mediocre but are they author skill? Probably not. I read a lot of books and I compare myself to these amazing best selling authors like, 'Can I write like that?' Possibly not but another part of my mind goes. 'You never know until you try' Which a lot of people tell me... It gets annoying after a while.

And finally, I'm self conscious about people judging me about this 'unrealistic' dream of becoming an author. There was a time I was 9 or 10 and I was actually writing a book in a little pink notebook I had and I got called out in front of EVERYONE. I was meant to be doing some other work but was working on my book instead. After that I stopped writing because of the embarrassment I experienced that day thanks to that teacher assistant who decided to be a b*tch, at that time I had a small amount of anxiety or 'shy' as people called me. You don't call a kid out in class just because they're not doing their work, just come over and quietly talk to them.

But yep, those are some reasons on what is stopping me to write a story and actually post it. I did used to do fanfictions and original stories on Wattpad, not sure if I got bored of them or they didn't gain enough attention. That also happens too! Hope you enjoyed reading me ranting.

Thanks

Ackie xoxo